A lesson in provision.

Yesterday, we had a couple come to our missions class. This couple felt called to leave everything that they had and walk to Peru from North Carolina. They didn't take any money, just clothes, a tent, basic supplies. Their walk lasted 591 days. They trusted in the Lord's provision the entire time. I had a hard time trying to interpret what this meant for my life, and it seemed to be too direct (in timing and content) to be coincidence. I was amazed at how faithful God was in providing the "little things" for this couple over the course of their trip. Looking back all the "little things" added up to a pretty massive sum. I was reminded that I should not forget how faithful God has been to me with all the little things in the past. My blessings are many.
At the end of our class, I mentioned to our professor that I was having a hard time finding the balance between responsibility and faith. He said that he sure couldn't give me any easy answer for that problem, but reminded me to remember that God is an expert when it comes to debt. It is amazing how words said with such humility and gentleness can be so powerful and convicting.
Honestly, I felt like weeping. How could I be so focused on my financial debt, even to the point of being frustrated with God, in light of my spiritual debt which has been, and continues to be, paid on my behalf. Money may be something, but the precious blood of Christ is quite another. I took some time to thank God for his provision for me in light of my flawed spiritual condition and I reflected on the idea that Jesus understands the weight of this burden that I bear. Praise God for his greatness. I am also thankful for this debt, simply for the reason that I have had the chance to consider the greatness of Christ's sacrifice for me while he bore my burden.